HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAVINIA!!!!!!

The first year is behind us now. As the saying goes "Time flies when you having fun" and it could not be more true than in this instance. The past year spent with Lovie, was not only fun, but awesome and educational, tiring and invigorating, but most importantly it was the best year of our lives. I have never woken every day with butterflies of excitement, like I did this year. Spending time with my baby, watching her learn, struggle, smile, babble, laugh; it is these precious fleeting times that I cherish whole heartedly . I am overjoyed at each new milestone passed but sad to know I will never see those loved moments again. I look forward to this next year as we enter toddlerhood with so much excitement. I can hardly wait to spend the rest of my life with her.


This year I have learned so much about life spending time with Lavinia.

1. 1There has to be some truth to the idea that some ethereal part of our souls is ancient and eternal because she was born with such deep wisdom. When you are with a newborn for a time, you get the feeling that you are in the presence of a conduit for the divine. I was truly ...humbled to be close to such radiant greatness and I was honored to tend to this great teacher. Newborns are what hallowed spiritual leaders seek, love without judgment and a state of consciousness that simply " is".

2. I was always skeptical that there was such a thing as love without judgment. When people would say “grandma is looking down on you from heaven" I was always a little uneasy about that. There were some things I didn’t want grandma to see! After meeting Lavinia in the first few weeks I understood how pure and total divine love is. It was transformative for me to experience this kind of love .

3. Another profound realization I had was that, if Lavinia is divine, then I must have been divine, we all must be. It made me look at the world and most of all myself differently. We are all born as divine radiant beings, imagine if we treated ourselves and others with the respect deserving of a divine being? I have spent so much of my life criticizing myself and my body. So many years hating my butt, come to find out my butt is divine!

4. I learned that being a mom is THE MOST incredible endeavor. It quenches some primal need, it is sooooooo satisfying. I have a theory that many of the aspects women unsuccessfully seek in men in a relationship , which men struggle to provide, are actually women instinctually looking for a baby, rather, the connection mothers have with their baby .

5. After having a baby, you look around at ALL the people all over the world and you are AMAZED that some mom somewhere went through THAT for every single person out there. It really is amazing. Take a moment to give thanks to your mom, she is brave and strong to have brought you to this world. They deserve it! Happy birthday Lavinia , you are the sunshine

 

 

 

 

 gone but not forgotten!!! last year this time..........